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will i be able to reach something i can't....
I don't want to lose...
will i be able to go on with this? I don't think i can go on...
I'm so fucking tired.
but no one seems to know what's going on.
i feel like such a two-faced idiot...
but maybe i am one.
i admit... I'm horrible.
There's things i would never say in real life...
that i believe deep in my heart...
there's feelings i confine... because the hate that i feel might hurt others.
i'm so lost...
but no one's there to understand...
But i'm glad.
cuz I'll try to find a way...
but i want to start over..
so so badly.
go somewhere where i don't know ANYBODY
and just START OVER.

music SPAZ :]

moving in a FORWARD MOTION
feeling WEIGHTLESS as i
RUNAWAY. let go of that EGO
and SLOW DANCE WITH A STRANGER
do new things and you'll begin to think
EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT. Don't worry about being DIFFERENT but spazzing is SO CONTAGIOUS. WE ALL FALL DOWN but we just need to BREAK OUT cuz THIS IS HOW WE DO. these are GOOD TIMES / SIX FEET UNDER THE STARS so just think of today as ANOTHER PERFECT DAY. PUMP IT cuz we ain't PHUNKIN' WITH [anybody's] HEART. we just here to have fun with CLOTHES OFF.
ALL THE SMALL THINGS have to be put into consideration cuz HONESTLY life is amazing. we all know THERE'S NO PENGUINS IN ALASKA so how hard is it to REALIZE that HANDS DOWN we gotta go and have some fun. DON'T WAIT. we should go to a PHOTOBOOTH and take random ass pictures. FEEL GOOD and you'll have the TIME OF YOUR LIFE. COLLIDE and have fun. the PAPARAZZI might come after you cuz you just brought SEXY BACK. but don't have BIRTHDAY SEX anytime soon. LOVE ME OR HATE ME but i'll keep you HANGING IN A MOMENT. MAKE BELIEVE can become reality if you wish upon a METEOR SHOWER :] TEENAGERS are crazy, so HOLD MY HAND and we'll go have crazy adventures! IT'S TEARING UP MY HEART when we're bored. so DO WHAT YOU WANT. don't worry if you see FUZZY BLUE LIGHTS... that's... completely normal O-o. we'll eat breakfast NINE IN THE AFTERNOON cuz we were totally BORN FOR THIS. we'll NEVER LET THIS GO. CAN I HAVE IT LIKE THAT cuz we'll be sipping LEMONADE. it's OUR TIME NOW. we CAN'T STOP now. I'M TAKING YOU WITH ME cuz we'll be FRIENDS TO THE END. in the MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT, we'll sneak out and cause havoc, PARTY LIKE A ROCK STAR, and be INVINCIBLE. we're IN TOO DEEP so we just can't stop. can you feel the TOKYO DRIFT, cuz YEAH, it's EVERYTHING YOU WANT. it's a PERFECT SITUATION cuz IMMA SHINE.

choices choies choices

I think there's two paths in life...
to fit in or be crazy
to stay in line or have fun
to cry or to laugh
to forget or to cherish
to hold a grudge or to forgive
to alienate or to befriend
to love or to loathe
to be direct or to be spontaneous
to be strict or to be laid-back
People just choose and live their lives the way they want to

Don't mind the people who look at you with distaste.
They just don't understand the life you CHOSE.
So what if people think you're weird?
THIS is your life NOBODY ELSE's
Keep it that way.
No one can choose for you but yourself.
Cherish that blessing and don't let others try to control you.
Keep YOURSELF in charge of what YOU do.

uh... yeah. :]

The world goes round and round
never stopping for any one time.
Sometimes I hoped that it would stop.
just for me so that I'll be able to change.
or prevent something bad from happening.
I wish society would for once STOP everything
and listen to the birds sing and feel the wind
dancing through the sunlit sky with clouds
roaming through the clear blue sky.

Just for a moment...
stop everything and hear
the raindrops hitting the window
and hear the silent music... fill the air.
<3

:]

ahahahha hi dudes...
i watched prince caspian... xDD feel like such a kid. That is a good movie though XP

nom nom nom yeahh...
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WHAT would it feel like...

Living in a dream... or what feels to be a dream?
Waking up to find... everything you believe gone?
Wishing on a star... or wishing on a helicopter?
Knowing the truth... or knowing a lie?
Staying with your friends... or staying with your enemies?
Dreaming a good life... and wake up to a nightmare?
Running towards a light... or running aimlessly?
Saving yourself from pity... or ridding yourself of sympathy?
Crying from laughing way too hard... or crying from saddening events?
Living in a normal life... and wishing for a better one?

merry christmas folks :]

"Loving the moments,
hating the glares.
keeping the smiles and
throwing away the tears."

idk... ^... i just made that up... from nowhere lol...

explanation: there's those times where everything's picture perfect...
but there's the drama underneath that isn't shown in the picture :/
there's those times where there's fake smiles and tears...
throw away those tears...
forget about the sadness... and keep the LEGIT smiles :]

that's kinda how my christmas felt like...in a less dramatic sense than the poem though... it was still good... no drama... and quiet :]

it all starts off... with a poem :]

two of the awesomest people ever are in a fight right now... and i hope they make up.
Cuz they're my role models and stuff... so they're freaking awesome together and i wish they would forgive each other and forget their fight...
This FREE VERSE poem is for them. :]
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................I know it's............been tough.........................
...............It's not easy...........to make up ......................
...............But it's impossible to break up......................
..................Together and going strong, .......................
....................The two of the greatest............................
.......................people that I could.................................
.............................ever know.........................................
..................................One...............................................
of them can be good,
but them two together is no joke.

........They together, ................ they so fly...................
........They got each.............. other's backs,.................
........for sure and forever. When they two##............
........together, I swear you can surely see##.............
........They're great together definitely#####...........
.........both physically and emotionally#####............
.........So many other people try so hard###..............
.........But it's so hard............ to find people.................
..........with such good............ chemistry##.................

They're like puzzle pieces,
fitting just right.
I may sound cliche...
I may sound gushy.
But it's true,
don't hate,
together, they're just great.

There can be mistakes,
there can be disagreeing,
but don't let a week of tears and fighting
make you let go of the months of just pure loving.

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ahahaha :]
my attempt of making a heart...
and my poor poor attempt of making a puzzle piece xD
i think they should read this...
but idk maybe it will make things worse...
if someone is reading this... could you help with some advice?
plz and thank you :]